Excited and scared.

Today was an interesting day. I'm not really sure what I was feeling, but it was akin to that feeling you'd finally get on the last day of school where you realize you're not going to see these people again for a really long time. Except in my case, it's possible I may never see these people again. Ever. It's a bit strange.

I was a little sad when it was finally time to start saying my goodbyes. It started to sink in once I had finished packing up my cubical. I managed to squeeze all of my desk toys and gadgets into a pretty small box, so that was satisfying and yet equally depressing.

Cruises! Note to self: the next time I go on a cruise, don't tell anyone. It seems everyone has been on a cruise at least twice, and they all have conflicting advice about what to do first and how to handle your stay. I eventually just started blocking people out because I came to realize that there is just so much freakin' stuff to do, only you can decide, when the time actually arrives, what you're going to do. And hey...

THIS IS OUR HONEYMOON, PEOPLE! WHAT DO YOU THINK WE'RE GOING TO BE DOING?!?

So I'm feeling a little scared of the fact that I'm now actually unemployed. That's right, I'm completely jobless. It's an interesting feeling. I've had a steady job for the past six years and now, by choice, I've got zero income and we're living off of our savings. It should be an interesting ride, but I'll tell you what, I'm going to enjoy every minute of it!

And here's a little piece of irony. When I got in my car after work, and turned on my stereo, this was the lyric that came on first. It's from the song "Afraid" by Yellowcard.

I am afraid right now,
You never will get out,
You'll never let yourself be saved,
You are so afraid.

Sheesh, talk about feeling like you're being watched. =P